Mirthless,indeed;

Gravity is what you feel like to me

From here.

An I've said, I've done

I've told you, I've asked you.

Only to realize an juss now

The distance or the difference between.

I call, you press the red

I reroute by asking you when or will you call me back.

To call you, I chose that

To reply to you any & all the times I ever have, I chose that

To reroute, was my excusing you for not

Pressing the green.

All the while in the dark

Still trying anyhow.

When in the dark is where I've been

all along.

I pull and just to feel your push

To feel you push, me.

I wanna feel you so bad

I've already done a lot I've never done before you

Nor will ever do with or for another.

It's attractive as fuck to me

How I respond to you an all you've ever said to me.

Even if, I too, see how sick that makes me

I'm so easy

So very simple

In my eyes

I'm done trynna read

What (all the words)

You never wrote me.

Excusing your actions an

Leaving all my unanswered questions

Blanks...in my head.

When I go

Back

An read again

the fragments

Searching for the sense to make of all these blanks

Mentally...in my head

And find the only answers

Of yours to me read

No an not today or

Opened

I have nothing to hide

I have only me to show

My only intent with you

Has always been

What It'll be everyday

To water you.

..it only just occurred to me that

I'm thirsty.

Thirsty...as fucK.

..ckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

Mercii; mercy.

It's so fucking sexy to me

The way you make whatever's inside me

Beg for you.

I'm hungry for

All the water I forgot to fetch me

That I neglected to collect

to water

Myself

But to say

it's not you

It's me

Would just be another excuse.